Monday, October 19, 2009
hmmm i'm feeling sleepy. but happy!sleepy. the kind of sleepiness that i used to get after swimming. oh and i probably should've mentioned this first: i picked up swimming again :) cos char brought me to the north adelaide aquatic centre.
and i'm very sure i posted this before, but because i feel the need to splash this up on my blog, here are some words of wisdom from jason mraz:
Nothing is final. One day you're high. The next day you're low. You might have a funky expressive or awful haircut today, but soon it will grow into something else, something new and random… … Perhaps you were madly in love last week, but woke up today feeling comfort in solitude, without a desire to be held.
Everything is fine. NOT final.
We tend to instantly identify with “things”. And we believe in so much, when in fact, a belief isn’t known to be true. It’s a hope for the truth. We hold grudges because of what someone said when we were young. We store hurtful words and replay them in our minds until we think it to be true. And some of us believe a TV commercial and think we need a faster computer, a smarter phone, a stronger pill, a more relaxed-fit jeans, etc. We think that certain things, thoughts, or actions make us who we are and sometimes we become addicted to those thoughts or behaviours and then become too afraid to let them go.
I write and post a lot therefore many people assume I have every self-published word memorized or that I live these shared thoughts constantly. This is not the case. My brain doesn’t reference myself very well actually, and I’m sure I contradict myself every other day in one way or another. One day I feel like I have all the wisdom of the world and the next day my soul wears thin and I stutter just ordering ice cream.
And everything is fine.
Because I trust in the ever-changing climate of the heart. (At least, today I feel that way.) I think it is necessary to have many experiences for the sake of feeling something; for the sake of being challenged, and for the sake of being expressive, to offer something to someone else, and to learn what we are capable of. These meanderings, rants, and blogs for instance provide a great deal of comfort just sharing it, even though I put a part of myself on the line to be criticized or considered an ass.
Oh well, courage is triumph of the soul I guess. And an Ass can still be of great service.
So Remember, you have the right to change your mind.
About anything.
Anytime.
This is not the ending.
P.S. No doesn’t mean forever. It simply means, “not right now”.
And on the topic of not right now, whatever happened to you in the past is not happening now.
You will be safe behind your honest decisions and mood swings.
I promise. i still don't know the solution, but as long as i'm happy with the way things are right now, i guess i'm more or less okay. i don't see the need to find the solution. i guess apathy is better than being affected.
and anyway, today's weather was much love. please please please send me more sunny days :)
oh and since the cat is out of the bag (facebook is too public), yes, i'm flying back earlier :) see you all after the 19th of November.
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