向左向右向前看#爱要拐几个弯才来

Wednesday, July 29, 2009

as wx kindly pointed out, the week will soon be over! haha a sudden wave of homesickness came over me yesterday. the feeling was so strong and overpowering that i really felt quite suffocated. spent the whole day unproductively and feeling rather emo and missing home (and special people back home) so much it was scary. and fretting over cbl didn't help much. now i really understand why people like shota and ryo and the rest of the guys would always complain about how tough it was for them to have to move from osaka to tokyo. i never realized how difficult leaving home behind was. it feels like leaving half of your heart and soul behind.

but then i really felt really touched to receive so much 关心 and 照顾 from the people around me that it helped me snap out of it. i'm very blessed to have such caring people here with me in adelaide. it's painful to be away from home, but i'm really really grateful that God blessed me with such amazing friends here. when the Lord closes a door, somewhere He opens a window.

then i channeled the remainder of my energy into preparing for cbl (to make up for my lack of productivity during the day) and slept at 4am. x_____x felt so sleepy during clin skills as a result. i realize i lead a very unhealthy lifestyle whenever the school term is taking place. i sleep late (and irregularly), i eat less. but what to do? i'm just not very efficient at studying. it takes me a much longer time to absorb info and understand new things.

and finally, something to encourage myself (:
荒れた青春の海は厳しいけれど
明日の岸辺へと　夢の舟よ進め
今　負けないで　泣かないで　消えてしまいそうな時は
自分の声を信じ歩けばいいの

change is taking place even now, but i'm going to let go and see where this leads me.

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