Sunday, July 26, 2009
[edit]it just seems like the right moment to be listening to GOODBYE DAYS by YUI. i am random. haha. [/edit]
am in much better spirits today. went grocery shopping with janene and jingru in a suburb! of all places. but it was a lovely experience. kind of felt like an adventure. i need to explore adelaide more. i realize i only know the same few streets and sights.
and just a few minutes ago, the rain came and went away suddenly. it was almost like i imagined it. but the rain left behind something really pretty (: my handphone camera doesn't do justice to how beautiful the rainbow actually was, but i couldn't help trying to take a picture of it anyway. was staring at it till it finally faded away.
alright, that aside, after having had very long and deep conversations with random ppl this holiday, here are some things i want to reflect upon.
- i want to learn to live like there is no tomorrow: without any hesitations, any regrets, or any self-doubts; and just go forth to do the things i want to do without letting anything hold me back. Work as if you have no need of the money. Love as if you've never been hurt before. Dance as if nobody is watching you. Sing as if nobody can hear you.
- i need to learn to stop letting other people dictate my life. (it's true. i've been a push over for far too long)... i need to learn to say no (in every sense of the word). it is after all, my life isn't it? so shouldn't i get a say in whether or not i want to do certain things? (bye bye bottom-feeder days)
- i also want to learn to be less dependent on other people. my happiness should not have to depend on another individual. also, i shouldn't have to be afraid to stand up against another for what i believe in.
- and while i'm at it, i want to be able to hold myself accountable for the things i do. when i aim to do something, i want to have the determination to hold on to it till the end. only then, can i start making changes, right?
ってゆうか、これから今まで以上にもっと頑張らなきゃね。もっと、もっと、強くなりたい。
弱い自分から卒業したい。
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