向左向右向前看#爱要拐几个弯才来

Thursday, April 30, 2009

i think the things we do leave a far greater impact on the people around us than we can ever imagine. and then again, sometimes it's the things we don't do (or say) that matter. irresponsible niceness can hurt sometimes, as can apathy, more so than hate.

as quoted from benjamin button, "our lives are defined by opportunities; even the ones we miss."

and since i'm quoting movies, i might as well add something from "closer", the movie we watched at michelle's house.

Dan: I fell in love with her, Alice.
Alice: Oh, as if you had no choice? There's a moment, there's always a moment, "I can do this, I can give into this, or I can resist it", and I don't know when your moment was, but I bet you there was one.

最近好像有种一直要大家迁就我的感觉。it feels strange to me. like i'm imposing on everyone around me. 皆、ごめんね (i'm sorry everyone).. i'm sleepy. and wondering how some people can compartmentalize their emotions so efficiently. for me, everything is in this messy whirl all around my head.

too much info in front of me. i can't absorb ... but i won't stress. becos stress causes release of cortisol, which has been shown to reduce the size of the hippocampus, which effectively reduces one's memory. hah. i still remember the stuff we learned in cognitive psych. why?! i should be trying to remember stuff on hypertension or anaemia now!!! haha i think this was covered in psych lectures too. something about retrograde versus anterograde memory. this is so ironic. the relevance of prior knowledge hitting home.

oh alright. shall go be optimistic and hope to cover more info before tmr. and hope i don't wake up late again!

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