Wednesday, June 25, 2008

The thing about history is that no matter how much you read up about a person or a place or an event, the truth is that what you’re chasing after is no longer there, and all that’s left are secrets that will never be exposed; memories that have faded away like writings in sand. Besides, history books are written by people, and thus a certain level of biasness is sure to exist. (Haha I’m reminded of sec 3 and 4 history lessons on source based questions!) As such, I guess there’ll always be a missing gap or chasm in my mind, longing to know the answers to the many mysteries that will never be solved. There are people I wish I could have gotten to know personally – to know what made them who they were and to know why they did the things that people now remember them for. On a more superficial level, I wish I could at least know how they looked like in person, since I highly doubt the accuracy of paintings left behind from centuries and millenniums ago. But I guess if books and documentaries are the only means I have of finding out more about the people and places that intrigue me so, then I’ll have to go with what I have. I wonder if there’ll be interesting history modules to take in uni. I might consider taking history as an elective or something

Anyway I was facebooking in the office *cough* and saw the daily bible verse and to my surprise God spoke to me through it. Isn’t it amazing how His word speaks to us – the same word speaking to and addressing the different needs of all creation? I think it comforts me to know that God has everything in His hand; and that He has something planned out just for me, even if I can’t see it yet.


"For I command you today to love the LORD your God, to walk in his ways, and to keep his commands, decrees and laws; then you will live and increase, and the LORD your God will bless you in the land you are entering to possess. "
- Deuteronomy 30:16

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Friday, June 20, 2008

all of a sudden, time seems to be moving all too quickly for my liking. :/
there's just so many things happening or going to happen and i'm just so tired i don't want to think anymore. so i'm just allowing myself to be swept along by the events and whatever. (if i ever get down to doing it) i'll try to prioritize and sort things out when i feel less exhausted.

i think people complicate matters too much, myself included. if only i didn't feel/care so much, things would be alot simpler.

anyway i have a strange urge to curl up in bed with all my soft toys, and to have the beatles/kanjani8 playing in my ears. okay i'm really sleepy plus my cramps are making me sleepier and grumpier.

back to work then. i have to work OT today. T___T

but! tmr is cycling trip <3 yay! shall have something to look forward to :D

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Monday, June 16, 2008

in view of yesterday's short, angry and irritable post:

"In your anger do not sin: do not let the sun go down while you are still angry, and do not give the devil a foothold." - Ephesians 4:26-27

I'm frustrated. I KNOW this. but I just can't stop feeling angry and hateful. ARGH.

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Saturday, June 14, 2008

kimi no koto ga DAI KIRAI.

i can't wait for the day i can finally get out of YOUR stupid miserable self centered life.

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Wednesday, June 11, 2008

sigh i should stop blog surfing cos i have tendencies to get really blue and overly nostalgic when i read entries written by people from the good old days. i never realized how happy i was then and how everything just seemed to fit despite my complains and grouses. and i guess i never did treasure the people around me enough. of all the people who meant alot to me, many have slipped through the cracks, and now i think i don't even know them anymore.

anyway apparently in NZ there's this tombstone that has no other epitaph or carvings except the words "here lies someone's darling". which actually makes alot of sense if you think about it. as long as you've lived and found someone to love and who loves you, i don't think it's necessary to have hoards of people to remember you; or to have loads of strangers read your name on cold stone and not caring what your name was in the first place. after all, i think we'd just want the person who meant the most to us to remember us and that would be enough wouldn't it?

anyway here's a list of stuff i've recently read / watched (for personal reference):

MOVIES

1. Lake Placid -_-
2. Hide and Seek
3. Enchanted (3 times!)
4. Bruce Almighty
5. Evan Almighty
6. Night at the museum (LOL)

BOOKS

1. Second Glance - Jodi Picoult
2. Nineteen Minutes - Jodi Picoult
3. The Kite Runner - Khaled Hosseni
4. A Thousand Splendid Suns - Khaled Hosseni
5. The Memory Keeper's Daughter - Kim Edwards
6. Plain Truth - Jodi Picoult
7. PS I love you - Cecelia Ahern
   
8. Secrets of a Fire King - Kim Edwards

I'm out of good books to read. The last one I read was A Thousand Splendid Suns, which made me cry on the bus >.< I think the guy sitting opposite me was staring cos I kept tearing and trying to blink back tears. But oh well. i'm out of books to read. If anyone can recommend me anything please do.

Okay. 2 more weeks of work. You can do this. Ganbare.

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