Monday, May 12, 2008

i thought that all this would have stood for something at least. but i guess i was just expecting too much from you.

i'm annoyed.

大丈夫さ？裏切られる事はもう慣れているから... oh well i'll be okay i guess. just feel disappointed though.

this uncertainty must be a test of my faith. oh God please please please please i don't even know what i should be asking for. i guess i just need someone i can talk to without any reservations. someone who won't put me down right away; but at the same time someone who won't give me unrealistic and impractical advice that gives me reason to hope for nothing. i've never felt more alone. oh Lord, won't you show me where i'm supposed to go from here? i'm so tired of being led around in circles and not knowing if there's a way out at all. oh let me be strong and let me have faith for though i am weak, You are strong and i guess at the end of the day, that's enough for me.

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Monday, May 05, 2008

I'm completely confused. I really want this to work out but I have no idea about anything anymore. There's nothing that I'm completely sure of. I really really don't want to end up doing something I dislike for the rest of my life though. I really want to believe that life is about running after the things you believe in; things you want to do and enjoy doing. But still. I wonder if that's just me being too idealistic. Where then does practicality and reality come in? I'm frustrated and I have no answers but at this point of time, I'm yearning with every fibre of my being for this to just work out somehow.

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