Monday, March 24, 2008

i'm feeling quite scared. of things to come, of things that are happening. i guess i just don't like change very much.

anyway i was going through some of the ancient e-mails in my inbox.. and it suddenly just hit me that i barely know them anymore. was i foolish then, to believe that those days would carry on forever? how we'd spend hours talking and sending SMSes to each other, irregardless of time differences; how we'd dream of the day when we could fly halfway round the world to meet each other... perhaps we were all just lonely people needing something/someone to cling to before we plunged back into reality. and now that we've each gone our own way back into reality, there's no more turning back and no more returning to how we used to be. how tragic - familiar sights now seem so foreign.

but i guess i shouldn't be complaining. i am surrounded by people i love to bits and i'm really thankful for that. i don't think i show my gratitude enough, but i really really do feel that i'm blessed. (: so for now, that's enough.

ダメなのか思うけどやっぱり好きやねん

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Saturday, March 22, 2008

But he was pierced for our transgressions,
he was crushed for our iniquities;
the punishment that brought us peace was upon him,
and by his wounds we are healed.

-isaiah 53:4-5

remembering all You've done for me even as you chose the cross so many years ago. i guess all i can offer you Lord, is this heart of mine. May you continue to fill it with praises for You alone, and with joy that comes only from You. Thankyou Lord. <3

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Tuesday, March 18, 2008

Today i read something that left me quite speechless. not that it particularly applies to me at this point of my life. cos frankly, I'm grateful to have been blessed thus far with a relatively smooth-sailing life. but I do want to remember this passage always so that in future, if i ever find myself in a position where everything seems dead and pointless, I want to be able to reflect and remember this passage, and know that God is in control, no matter how things may seem.

here it is:
Over a hundred years ago in England, the borough of West Stanley endured a great tragedy. A mine collapsed, trapping and killing many of the workers inside. The bishop of Durham, Dr Handley Moule, was asked to bring a word of comfort to the mourners. Standing at the mouth of the mine, he said, "It is very difficult for us to understand why God should let such an awful disaster happen, but we know Him and we trust Him, and all will be right. I have at home," he continued, "an old bookmark given to me by my mother. It is worked in silk, and, when I examine the wrong side of it, I see nothing but a tangle of threads, crossed and re-crossed. It looks like a big mistake. One would think that someone had done it who did not know what she was doing. But, when I turn it over and look at the right side, I see there, beautifully embroidered, the letters GOD IS LOVE.

"We are looking at this today," he counseled, "from the wrong side. Someday we shall see it from another standpoint, and shall understand."

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Wednesday, March 12, 2008

"The Lord's love never ends; His mercies never stop. They are new every morning." - Lamentations 3:22-23

amidst the disappointment, i'm glad to say God has showered me with more blessings than i can count. Thank God for family; thank God for friends. Thank God for all the little things that make me smile everyday. (:

i know God has a plan for me. i just haven't figured it out yet. so God, please give me some direction. And help me trust that no matter where You lead me, it'll be a place that suits me perfectly in accordance to Your will.

that's all for now i guess.

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Thursday, March 06, 2008

i'm gonna miss xinlei ): today is her last day at work.

the weather is lovely though. it almost feels like i'm in some temperate country. i really really love walking after the rain.

listening to kona yuki never felt more apt. cos of everything that's happened / happening today. and sangatsu kokonoka too come to think of it.

get well soon gek if you read this :p

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Tuesday, March 04, 2008

i honestly had an entry all planned out in my head but somehow when i started typing, it just vaporised and then i couldn't decide on how to start the entry. T_T

oh well. it's already march. and i think i need to start planning out everything. i don't know.. it's like i have all these ideas but then again everything is so sketchy. and sometimes when i think of all these things, i can't help but ask myself: hontouni dekiru no ka?

gargh. i should get back to work. lunch today was quite gross. i feel like throwing up what i just ate.

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