Monday, December 31, 2007

i feel strangely empty. usually at this time of the year, i'd be fretting over school reopening in like a day or two. and feeling a really strong pang of monday blues and wishing that the hols could last just a little bit longer. but now that i don't have to go back to school... (i never believed the day would actually come but well, here it is.) i amazingly find myself wishing i had school to attend once again. ): sighh. i think people are just never satisfied with what they have, myself included.

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Saturday, December 29, 2007

sometimes i wonder if you'll know instantly, when meeting your soulmate for the first time, if he/she is the one. or do you have to start from scratch and only know after spending lots of time with him/her.

anyway i think it'd be cool to write a letter to yourself and only read it in the future. kind of like a time capsule. it would also be nice for couples to write letters to each other and keep it as some kind of time capsule when they get married. it's always nice to have something tangible from the past to look back on. to remind yourself of things that might otherwise have slipped away.

i've been watching lots of shows about really cruel illnesses lately. by coincidence. first there was 1 litre of tears. then there was tuesdays with morrie. and then there was tokyo tower. gosh i never knew i could cry so much. but then i like shows that move me to tears.

haha spent today in orchard with mink and gek. it was fun but erp i feel like a fish out of water. i almost forgot which exit to go to fareast plaza from orchard mrt.

oh alrite. this has been a hopeless attempt to keep this blog updated. but blogger makes me not want to blog.

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Sunday, December 16, 2007

today i went for service for the 1st time ever :D i really liked it alot. God spoke to me in a way He has never done before. i hope i can go for next week's Christmas service. This year, i want Christmas to be all about Jesus <3

I'm really sleepy now even tho it's only 10.30pm........ the ride back from expo was really long and quiet. had alot of time to think. and now i'm kind of nodding off. so yea. gd night world. i'm going away on a cruise tomorrow! i'm excited :D i think it'll be fun.

byebye.

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Thursday, December 13, 2007

grr i'm feeling lonely cos everyone's gone away ): and my cruise is when everyone starts coming back. ): ): ): ):

haha but i'm thankful for the little blessings that really make my day. haha anyway today's class cell was coolios. we were walking around looking for some quiet spot to pray. and God did provide!! posef spotted this really weird space that used to be a shop i think. and there was air con and everything. so it was really quite ideal. haha how timely isn't it. for God's providence to be given to us just like that. haha somehow it felt extra special when we were thanking God for providing us with the time and the place to gather before Him. (:

anyway for now at least, i really love the people in my life. i may be anti-social and an introvert and not good at putting my feelings in words... but i really do love all of you! I thank God for each and every one of you. (:

yay! i think the optimist in me is coming backkkk! no more angst. :D

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Wednesday, December 12, 2007

(: i bought a new book by max lucado today :D i really really like his books becos he really makes me look at God's word in a new light.

I've decided.. it's time to let go and move on. We can't keep living in the past. I don't want to worry about the future either. For now, I just want to live each day for God. Day by day; moment by moment.

"This is the day the Lord has made. We will rejoice and be glad in it." - Psalm 118:24

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Monday, December 10, 2007

what have i been doing for the past few days?

1. Baking at Gek's house with Mingsee (:
haha we baked chocolate muffins and cheesecake. i think we kind of messed up the kitchen. =X but it was quite fun spending the day at Gek's house... and we watched abit of TV, ate lunch and played with her dog... and had dinner with her family. i haven't had so much fun for a really long time. so thankyou gek and mingsee for yet another wonderful memory.

2. Watching Movies.

3. Watching Japanese Dramas.
I finally got to watch [1 litre of tears] after wanting to watch it for a million years. It was as wonderfully touching and sad and moving as i imagined it to be... so it was a really satisfying watch. I really admire Aya's courage. Her diary entries are so poetic and beautifully written that reading them alone can move me to tears. I think this is truly the best show I've ever watched. And of course there was Asou Haruto who was just every girl's dream boyfriend. He was unbelievably sweet and lovable. but oh well he's fictional. i wonder if such perfect guys do exist in the real world.
I also watched the Japanese dramatization of hana-kimi. It was really funny and entertaining til the last episode. Farewells and goodbyes are always so tearful and sad ):

4. Writing Christmas cards
I always love sending Christmas cards to the people I love. cos it reminds me of all the joy and happiness there is in my life thanks to all these people. and then it makes me feel happy and smiley and warm and fuzzy even if I have had a really horrible day.

5. Going on MSN again!
haha it feels weird coming online so much though. I still feel quite disorientated somehow. But anyway I was using my Ryo/Asou-Haruto display pic today and at least 3 people commented he was pretty :D haha. and yayy i got to chat with mali and ane again. (: i guess it's good catching up with the part of your life you left behind. It's nice to know that at one point in your life, there were people who meant so much to you, and who thought the world of you.

6. Shopping!
I bought new shoes and new clothes... and one of those mini manequins to hang earrings and necklaces. (: it's really pretty!

7. Cooking with cell-group (:
haha i fried bacon. it was quite fun getting to socialise after being so anti-social. and spending time with sisters in Christ always warms me up. :D

8. And listening to music. My current playlist:

When You're Gone - Avril Lavinge
Ben - Michael Jackson
I knew I loved You - Savage Garden
If Everyone Cared - Nickelback
Savin' Me - Nickelback
Your Song - Elton John
Only Human - K
Kona Yuki - Remioromen
Sangatsu Kokonoka - Remioromen


I'm bored though. I keep thinking the same thoughts. so many what ifs. so many hypothetical situations. I think I seriously need to get out and do something. or get a job. I wish I could go travelling to someplace far. where it's only me and mother nature. Then I'd be able to marvel at God's creations first hand. and marvel at just how small I am; how small my problems are.

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Saturday, December 08, 2007

prom photos are here. though i think that hardly anyone reads this blog.... which might be a good thing as well.

i'm tiredd ):

but anyway i bought myself a new book. by jodi picoult.

one day when i have saved up enough money, i want to go to see the aurora borealis in canada/antarctica(?) in person. i always see it in movies and in pictures and it looks so pretty and magical and i think that it would be even more powerful if it could be seen live.

ok shall not bother with the incoherent random typing then.

[edit]
otsuka ai writes really nice songs... though they're kinda sad too.

<<扇子>>

涙は幾ら流しても止まらないの
どれだけ扇いでも乾かない
でもね　決して見られちゃいけないの
私は強い子なんだから

ちょっと　躓いたよね
ちょっと　失敗したよね
あぁ、こんなに晴れちゃ　声あげて泣けないよ
ちょっと　愚痴をこぼした
ちょっと　言い訳した
あぁ、にっこりした風よ　優しく抱きしめて

唇　とんがらせて　大きい靴引き摺って
暑いのに太陽で私を刺すのね
腕が痛くなるくらい扇いで
誰にも顔が見えないくらい

ちょっと　躓いたよね
ちょっと　失敗したよね
あぁ、こんなに暖かいと　見上げちゃうよ
ちょっと　愚痴をこぼした
ちょっと　言い訳した
あぁ、笑顔の香りで　優しくだきしめて

and <<金魚花火>>

心に 泳ぐ 金魚は 恋し 想いを 募らせて
真っ赤に 染まり 実らぬ 想いを 知りながら
それでも そばにいたいと 願ったの

夏の匂い 雨の中で
ぽたぽたおちる 金魚花火
光で 目がくらんで
一瞬うつるは あなたの優顔

心に 泳ぐ 金魚は 醜さで 包まれぬよう
この夏だけの 命と 決めて
少しの 時間だけでも
あなたの 幸せを 願ったの

夏の匂い 夜が包んで
ぽたぽたおちる 金魚花火
どんな言葉にも できない
一瞬うつるの あなたの優顔

夏の匂い 雨の中で・・・・

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Thursday, December 06, 2007

i am suffering from a splitting headache. feels like what a hangover should feel like though i really have no idea how a hangover is supposed to feel like. hm i'm not making sense again.

oh well. prom is over. and so is the class stayover at my house. (: ok it turned out more fun than i expected. guess i'll miss JC more than i thought i would. watching hanazakiri no kimitachi e at home with ppl from class all through the night was kinda fun too. thanks guys for 2 years of memories; for a whole lot of fun. without you guys, JC would have been a whole lot different and i'm just glad i survived it with you guys. 07S06S <3 and special mentions go to sichen weiyi and chengg whom i probably have dumped alot of my incoherent rants on throughout the 2 years. haha thanks alot for tolerating all my nonsense.

thanks too to minky and gek whom i kind of dragged around the shopping mall. haha i'm just really glad to have known you guys. you rawk and i love both of you muchly. <33333 i guess even though we haven't been in the same class for 2 years already and probably the rest of our lives... you guys will always have a special place in my heart. jiayou! and i love you <333333

mmm. prom photos. i'll upload them when my head isn't hurting so much. haha on another note i finally joined facebook -_- hopefully it doesn't end up dead and un-used like my friendster accout lol. oh wells. that's that then. for now... i'm gonna sleep some more. i sound like a pig ):

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Monday, December 03, 2007

ok fine. i'm back with another post like less than an hour since just now. this is what it's like to be a himajin :D and here's a post to k-chan. (: don't pout k. i know we've both been kinda hikikomori-like. well you more than me. cos i've still been going out (quite alot actually). fine so i'm not the hikikomori. you are. BUT ok cheer up ne. school life is always like that. it's strange to think that i'm officially graduated from rj and leaving school though. it's so so sad. I was happy about it for quite awhile but i duno.. this week..i'm kinda missing a lot of ppl coz we don't see each other at school. Lately, i don't know. i was desperate to get out of this school coz of all of the drama going on. mou tsukareta to omotte cho i wanted to fly away and suteru everything and never come back. dakedo, these days, nanka... chigauna te omotta-. yappa im gonna miss all the ppl here. grar. i don't think i'm making sense. datte sa-. it'll all work out in the end (:

hmmm. anyway jiayan is helping me order the new NEWS pacific album! lol what is this? johnnys revival? grrrr i can't believe this is happening. but ok in self defence, NEWS actually does sing well. though i'm really missing u plus k.

k i'm kinda tired.

Lord, I hope this day is good
I'm feelin' empty and misunderstood
I should be thankful Lord, I know I should
But Lord, I hope this day is good

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hello blog! long time no see!
it feels so strange to be coming online again after like 6 months or so... but yay it finally feels like i'm getting my life back :D i'm actually enjoying having to toggle between blogging and managing like 10 msn convo windows at the same time. haha.

anyway this entry shall be dedicated to gek dear (: tho i haven't seen you in such a loooong time ): miss you lots!!! and after prom let's finally get down to actually doing all the things we always plan to do after every exam :P like cycling at east coast park and playing by the beach! and going to do cool stuff like visit weird places in Singapore! (: anyway once this year ends, I'll officially have known you for 6 years. (: so yay! here's to yet another year of friendship and lots of love on 2008~ *HUUUUUUGS*

ok dear hope the above paragraphed was satisfying enough (: i'm being really annoyed by my brother though.. cos he keeps trying to read over my shoulder.

haha anyway i have no idea what's actually going on tmr during prom. or after. and who's coming to my house for sleep over. o_O;; i just hope it will be fun.

alright shall end off here then. will update again when something post worthy crops up. (:

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