Sunday, April 29, 2007

o_____o Jimmy mackey / James Martin or whatever he's called is in my sister's physics elective class at waseda. ok ok i'm supposed to be totally over johnny's jrs. BUT haha it's quite amusing isn't it. like he's supposed to be THE tall lanky guy i used to watch every weekend on "shounen club". and he's my sister's classmate. LOL okayyy. but still. it would totally have been cooler if Wentz was my sister's classmate. X( or like someone from KAT-TUN or NEWS. or like erm hasejun! but nah hasejun's in akiya daigaku and not waseda X( ah well. i miss my johnnys fangirling days.

nvm. anyway that aside. it's gonna be prayer engage week this week! (: i'm quite excited i think. i haven't really decided what exactly to pray about. but there's quite alot of stuff on my mind. i'm just gonna let God lead then.

nites.

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Tuesday, April 10, 2007

went back to support the juniors today.. and although they didn't get GWH, i must say i still feel really proud of them from maturing from little sec ones whom we used to scold and nag at, into responsible sec fours who are leading the band. and when yanjin, jas guo, yinrui, and I went back to rgs to talk to them after the results were announced, it really really did feel like that scene from [waterboys 2], where their school band was late and missed the competition, but still went on stage to play their piece for the last time, and everybody cried cos it was like, they were living for that moment on stage, and it had finally come. i guess that's the kind of conviction one gets from being in band. You live for the music; for that one moment that you go up on stage to perform that music you've been practicing for so long.

i almost cried along with the juniors. cos afterall, nobody really understands the feeling of how important a gold with honours is, unless you are/were a bandgirl. so many ppl were saying stuff like "congrats" and "isn't gold really good?" which i guess makes it hurt more. but truly, i can tell that during their choice piece, they were really letting the music take charge, and being part of the music itself. and i know they must have worked very hard. so for us i think that's enough.

i still feel super super nostalgic. i never realised i missed RG so much. I miss the place and the atmosphere, and how cozy and homely it felt. And of course, I miss the bandroom, and bandpracs, and mr oura's conducting. I miss the sec 3 Japan band trip and I miss our SYF pieces. I miss the discipline and the respect, which is sadly lacking in so many places right now.

Sigh.. I do miss band alot. i guess it's true: once a bandgirl, always a bandgirl. (: i love rgssbee. come to think of it, i miss my sb. haha. so many memories shared with them. heh (: i feel kind of teary-eyed again... :b

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Sunday, April 08, 2007

i guess God has always taken care of all the major issues in my life, allowing it to fall perfectly in line with His perfect plan. Where I am right now; what I'm doing; it's quite amazing that He's placed me here for a specific reason and purpose, but what I find difficult is discovering just what that might be. More than half my JC life is already over, and yet I don't feel as though I've really achieved anything significant for His glory. Maybe I'm just not listening hard enough for His voice to lead me. Or maybe I'm just not looking hard enough for the opportunities He's given me.

I really want to make the little things matter though. To glorify Him in all the little things I do. I feel terrible everytime I fall to temptation and find myself committing old sins I thought I'd finally matured from. And perhaps I haven't been trying hard enough for Him so far.

やっと、高校生のpressureにであった。↓↓ (涙) i seriously need to start mugging ): ):

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Saturday, April 07, 2007

Amazing grace
how sweet the sound
That saved a wretch like me!
I once was lost, but now am found,
Was blind, but now I see.

’Twas grace that taught my heart to fear,
And grace my fears relieved;
How precious did that grace appear,
The hour I first believed!

Thro’ many dangers, toils and snares,
I have already come;
’Tis grace has brought me safe thus far,
And grace will lead me home.

The Lord has promised good to me,
His word my hope secures;
He will my shield and portion be,
As long as life endures.

Yes, when this flesh and heart shall fail,
And mortal life shall cease;
I shall possess, within the veil,
A life of joy and peace.

The earth shall soon dissolve like snow,
The sun forbear to shine;
But God, who call’d me here below,
Will be forever mine.

Father forgive me for all my sins, and cleanse me once again. I thank You, Father, for Your son Jesus Christ, and His sacrifice for me. Lord, oh, Lord I come before You right now to thank You for this love; for the cross; for the nail-pierced hands.

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