Thursday, March 22, 2007

His grace is sufficient for me (:

i'm in a good mood, plus CTs are almost over. physics tmr will be the last paper(!!) ...

haha it's quite scary though. cos from here onwards things are just gonna become one crazy mad rush. and i'm still so uncertain of everything.

but really, i'm thankful for the people in my life. (: where would i be without them heh. i'm quite scared of change(s). so i'm kinda hoping it won't all just rush past before i get to grasp hold of the meaning of everything. i'm scared of moving on.

anyway my brother just bought a new computer. it's gorgeous. i mean, i really love my computer (which was my 14th birthday's present from my parents, i say proudly). it's my baby. but gosh my brother's computer is just o_________o woah. plus the new windows vista is really quite cool!

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Sunday, March 18, 2007

i think that deep down, what everybody desires, is to have the knowledge that there will always be (at least) one person who will stand by their side and say "I still love you" even through the most difficult and tough times; even through failures and unsuccessful trials. and that's exactly what makes God's love so amazing.

now is such a wrong time to be blogging anyway. just suddenly heard a song that made me feel like blogging. sigh. i always say i don't care, but deep down i do.

i'm quite scared about the whole of next week. i tried, really i did. just perhaps i didn't try my best. which is what always sucks: when you look back and realize that the biggest blame has to go to you for not trying hard enough.

gah. X(

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Wednesday, March 07, 2007

i think it takes great faith to be able to simply come before God and say "not my will but Yours be done". I'm proud of you (: God bless you two no matter what happens.

anw i'm confused over _________. nah i'm not gonna broadcast it here. i just need to vent my frustration. i wish i wouldn't feel this way about _________ ): nah but it's ok. this time round i've learnt my lesson. i'm not gonna nurse it. just go away and leave me alone.

haha this is totally not gonna make any sense unless i've already told you about it. so to those who don't understand the above paragraph, XP don't bother.

ok shall end here.

[edit] why do you always want us to be who we aren't? why do you always want us to do the things you want us to do, even if it's against our wishes? i know to you it may seem childish, immature, maybe even stupid. but why can't you let us work it out ourselves? will you only feel satisfied when we've all turned into little robots who only do what you expect them to do? we are human beings with feelings too. we have our own hopes and dreams. who are you to say that what i enjoy has no future? sheesh. [/edit]

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Thursday, March 01, 2007

暧昧让人受尽委屈
找不到相爱的证据
何时该前进何时该放弃
连拥抱都没有勇气
暧昧让人变得贪心
直到等待失去意义
无奈我和你写不出结局
放遗憾的美丽

listening to this song made me remember her. quite funny. i haven't thought about her for almost a year. i guess i just never know how to pace myself in relationships. so somewhere along the way ... our friendship died. i think i have this phobia of getting too close to anyone, unless i am already quite close to her/him. like always, whenever a relationship is gonna go one step deeper, i find myself pulling away and subconsciously losing interest/confidence/faith in the relationship. it's even worse if the opposite party is the one who's initiating the process of bringing the relationship to a deeper level, cos i'd always feel like i wasn't being given enough freedom. it gets kinda suffocating after awhile. this is how i've somehow drifted away from so many people and unknowingly murdered what could have been better friendships (i think).

oh well. i'm trying to word this in an un-angsty way. cos i'm not really angsty right now. just reflective. and nostalgic. but i've been trying harder to remember to love the people around me, knowing that we love because He first loved us.

oh! anyway my sis is visiting from japan for 10 days! (: i've missed her so much! and her boyfriend yusuke is so nice. he really got me the UFO catcher thing. lol. I really don't know how things will turn out, but I do pray that God will just shine His light upon them and lead them (:

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