Friday, February 23, 2007

HAHA i should totally compile a list of all the silly things that happen to mingsee and me everytime we go out. like the time we went to make gek's birthday present, we coincidentally chose to sit right in front of luozhixiang's bill board (which coincidentally happened to advertise his autograph session at the same location the next day)... and his fan club thought we were his ardent fans or something -_- oh and today we were trying to decide on whether or not to buy a copy of the newspaper at 7-11, we went into this corner to discuss and if there were security guards eyeing the CCTV, omg we'd look like we were trying to discuss whether or not to rob 7-11 of their ice-cream supply. haha don't ask. XP

anyway today was quite a good day i think. was quite tired but yup it was quite good. it was good to talk to char and ming see (separately) about lots of things.

hai. i'm sleepy.

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Thursday, February 15, 2007

was feeling quite sad today cos i felt left out and kept in the dark. i wish either one of you would tell me what was going on. it's when i dont know about people that i care about, that i worry and feel bad. but sigh whatever. i don't even know why that's affecting me so much. maybe it's cos i'm scared of losing you.

yup got kinda anti-social and emo during break. so i decided to talk to Jesus. and write him a letter. and i'd expected it to be a mere short note to tell him how sad i was feeling. but when i actually started, it actually took up my whole recess. it was good just pouring out everything i was feeling; everything i was stressed about. and it really really helped. just knowing that He cares, and that He forgives me and that He loves me so much. I felt so much better instantly. it's amazing. I think no one can really touch my heart like God does. I feel loved. (:

but yea anyway thank God for mingsee haha. she always makes my four-year-old split personality surface when i talk to her... I'm really quite scared of growing up and life after JC... cos I'm scared of being separated from the friends I've gradually become dependent on. I'm scared of new environments. and i'm scared of the responsibilities that come with growing up. But i really do want to just entrust it all to God and trust Him. (: i feel considerably better about everything, knowing God will take care of it all.

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Wednesday, February 14, 2007

happy v'day/friendship-day 2007! and a big thankyou to everyone who actually bothered to give me presents. haha it's really really sweet of you. and thankyou jasmine for your lovely flower! much love to all of you <333

hai. having a really bad headache. think i probably won't be doing any work tonight. shall go to sleep after this. oh and find some painkillers too. >_< oh but at least i'm in quite a good mood. i got 20/25 for my math test :D

anyway i quote from Daro's email to me:

ROFL!!! so cuuuute! although i'm quite sure that wasn't what he meant. haha oh dear. i miss all the cambodian kids from kien khleang so much ): ): ): and i'm so worried for them cos apparently there's been some management problems over at the orphanage. really hope things will work out fine for them. may the Lord watch over each and every one of them.

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Sunday, February 11, 2007

i'm really not strong enough to have to carry your burden too. i'm really too weak for it, and it's worse when you look to me for solutions, and I feel like i somehow have to be strong enough to carry your burden as well. perhaps you've been living with this burden for too long as well. maybe it's time to let it go and let God lead you. I really don't have the answers and I really don't know what to do. All i can do is pray for God to give you the answers you need. And that when you speak, the Holy Spirit will give you the words you need.

Father, I entrust this burden into your hands... and pray, Father, that it will stop hanging over the both of us and hindering us any further. All this I pray in Jesus' most precious and holy name, Amen.

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Thursday, February 08, 2007

[edit] oh yea random thought just came back into my head. i thought it was quite unethical/not-very-nice of X to tell on Y. it felt as though Y was being backstabbed by X. people are scary. and the world is such a complicated place. my goodness. is this really a junior college that i'm at? this is like some kind of sick joke where i'm forced to revisit kindergarten and like watch all the little kids run to the teachers to tell on their playmates e.g. "so-and-so took my cookie" or "so-and-so pulled my hair", etc etc and getting so-and-so into trouble. i seriously felt so bad for Y. [/edit]

i've always wondered what it would be like to live life without having to be answerable to anyone; what kind of life it'd be: stress-free? carefree? meaningless? i've finally found the answer, in a not so pleasant way. cos i guess if he'd had someone to be answerable to, he wouldn't be living the life he is now. but it's sad cos he didn't choose to not have anyone to be answerable to. somehow with all the unexpected events life brings, he just ended up where he is right now. and I really pray that somehow in those circumstances, he will grow up to be the boy i know he truly is. I have faith in him, I really do.

anyway i sometimes wonder how much i actually mean to other people, especially if they mean alot to me. i know love is not about demanding an equal place in someone's heart, but i guess sometimes i do feel jealous/insecure. it's something that i'll have to keep praying about i guess.

in other words, I miss you and wonder if you miss me too.

sigh i think i'm being a little emo tonight :| oh well at least the crazy week is over >.<
talking to God helps though . for I am weak, but He is strong. and He is faithful even when I am not. SV worship today was really good. I wonder how worship and services are like at actual church services. I'd really love to be able to go for one. (: but God has perfect timing. Will wait for Him to bring me.

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Friday, February 02, 2007

sigh i realize i blog surf ALOT when i'm stressed.

sigh i'm just very tired. must do super well for the coming common tests to get out of remedials (which don't seem to help -_-) haha maybe like what minky said, these remedials serve as a incentive for you to study so you won't have to be in them. like if they actually helped, i wouldn't mind staying back for more remedials. but eh nvm. i shall stop whining.

seriously i'm just v tired (not just physically la). God please open their eyes to You. Help them see You for who You are, Lord. and help them to understand the fullness of Your love for them. i pray for the day the whole family will go to service together, worship Him together.

i'm sleepy. i shall go to sleep. it's past midnight.

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