Thursday, December 21, 2006

i hate this inability to express myself; this lack of words.
today, as i watched you turn away with tears of your eyes, i could hear myself screaming so many things, trying to make you feel better, only to realise what i was hearing was merely the voice in my head. everytime i find myself in situations like these, i have so many thoughts and feelings but somehow when i try to voice out these thoughts and feelings, they get lost in between my brain and my tongue. in the end, i could only offer you a hug and hope you'd feel better.

it's funny though. thinking of this made me remember _______. how you'd say so many things but still fail to touch me. cos i knew you never meant it.

What would you do if my heart was torn in two
More than words to show you feel
That your love for me is real
What would you say if I took those words away
Then you couldn't make things new
Just by saying I love you

time will heal...
Jesus will heal my wounds.

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Tuesday, December 19, 2006

there was some rather serious landslide in my estate today. (caused by the rain). half the mountain (or rather, hill) collapsed onto that tiny playground up the street. when mommy was sending me to the mrt station we were stunned to see so many policemen so we drove up to one of them and asked what happened. and then he pointed sullenly at the hill thing and said "landslide." the policemen have been there since morning. and apparently one of the houses there is unsafe to live in at the moment cos the foundations are unstable so the residents have had to move out till the officials say it's safe. seriously, i think this has got to be the first time my estate appeared in the news.

made me remember what mr tan said when we were visiting Ta Phrom (is that how you spell it?)... he said that whatever man can build, nature can destroy. it really fitted the situation then. and kinds of fits the situation now.

at moments like these i miss you more than ever.

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Monday, December 18, 2006

went out with gek and minky today and did quite abit of walking heh ^_^;; BUT i did manage to accomplish all that i wanted to do today! like getting the photos printed for Sothea, DaRo, Deth, Srey Sras and Mr Tommy / Mrs Serena (aka my new friends in Cambodia <333 )... and browsing through all the nice novels in kino/borders... and eating ice cream. haha.

maan i miss Cambodia so much. I miss all of them like crazy. And then I recalled how after all the days of doing manual labor (i.e. scraping old paint, plastering holes in the wall, sandpapering after the plaster has dried, painting new layer of paint, mixing paint ,etc...) we got abit obsessed hehe. so when we visited the S'pore Embassy, Michelle Chee was like "wowww the walls here are so smooth! i bet they sandpapered it alot!" and how when I saw the flaky paint on the walls of the orphanage I told wanfen, "this wall is asking to be scraped." lol. it's funny thinking of it but i guess what kousuke said is true too. at least now we've learned to appreciate our super comfy living conditions and how nice S'pore really is.

sighh i really want to go back to Cambodia next year. like after A levels or something. but first must chiong and study really hard. speaking of which, i'm quite worried about next year. =/ but God will lead me through it all la. *beams*.

ooooo and being totally random, my mommy bought me "The Time Traveller's Wife"! I've been eyeing that novel for ages. yay.

okies. shall end off here then.

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Monday, December 04, 2006

hello hello I'm back from Cambodia... (: the last 2 weeks spent there have been seriously the most special and magical 2 weeks of my life. i thank God for opening my eyes and for the opportunity to be there. i really love all my Cambodian friends so much... I was super sad to go la. God bless them and watch over them. (:

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