Sunday, November 12, 2006
The day I left home I knew I’d broken His heart
And I wondered then if things could ever be the same
Then one night I remembered His love for me
And down that dusty road ahead I could see
It was the only time
It was the only time I ever saw Him run
And then He ran to me, took me in His arms
Held my head to His chest
Said, “My son’s come home again”
Lifted my face, wiped the tears from my eyes
With forgiveness in His voice
He said,”Son,do you know I still love you?”
He caught me by surprise and brought me to my knees
When God ran, I saw Him run to me.
-extract from "When God ran"
saw those lyrics on his blog and they brought tears to my eyes. how many times am I gonna have to break His heart again just to learn that each time I drift away, I hurt Him?
King of kings, mighty Lord, You deserve so much more from me. please Lord, humble me and draw me close to you. Lord help me to mean what I pray... and Lord help me to do what You want me to do. Father, You alone know my heart... Help me to examine it and to come before You clean and pure. Help me to rid myself of all the baggage still cluttered around my heart. All this I ask of You in Your most precious name... Amen. you know what hurts me the most? when you say all those things and not know what you're talking about at all. why won't you ever give Him a chance for once? nevermind. i trust for His will to be done in His perfect time.
i miss Ane. was text messaging her the other day and it reminded me of all the crazy times we had. even though we only knew each other online, somehow i felt that we could speak to each other as though we were really bosom friends who had known each other for quite some time. i miss Mali too. all the crazy fangirling. haha non-stop entertainment. i don't know why i'm suddenly so nostalgic. these memories never do actually go away, do they? they just pretend to fade away and resurface at the strangest possible times. hah. one day i really want to go to Norway and visit them... (:
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