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Saturday, August 12, 2006

it's like pouring water out of a jug.. no matter how you try afterwards, you can't possibly collect back every single droplet. =/ or worse still. you might not even be able to collect anything back. i hate talking in riddles. but. this is a personal issue that's strictly between me and God (: noone else would understand. grrr. i've been struggling with it for too long. i need to find a way to end the guilt, end the negative feelings, end the unforgiveness (both sides). in short, i need to find away to let go to all this unhappiness and finally move on.

anyway whoever said platonic relationships were impossible/hard to maintain? i think that if you really know someone well enough, you'd know how you view him/her : as a friend or in a romantic light. like how i view Kou-chan. he's so much like a really good friend or brother.. (and yes he's like a soulmate cos he understands even the things i don't know how to express in words.) it's like impossible for either of us to have romantic inclinations. it'd feel just as wrong as having romantic inclinations on your biological siblings. oh well in any case, i'm blessed to have him as this friend and brotherly figure in my life (: ともだちになれて、本当によかった!

sigh. i really don't see how things are gonna work out. =/ but then i'll wait and see.

"For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." - Jeremiah 29:11

i know that somehow, He is in control; that He has a plan for me. but it's just really hard right now when i've made so many mistakes and blunders and like nothing seems to be making any sense. but yes, i will trust in Him. (:


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