Friday, June 30, 2006

God has been so merciful to me this week... although there were slight ups and downs. but He has really taught me alot through all the events. :) Today after the last paper I met up with Gek and Mingsee and we did lotsa cool stuff like go to the airport and watch airplanes :) I've missed being in the midst of a girl-only environment, but it was nice coming to RJ too. :) got to know quite a few Godly classmates, and I really thank God for that. It's really a blessing to even just spend time humbling ourselves before Him, praising Him together and encouraging each other in our walk with Him :) Anyway it was sad to hear of his backsliding... Kousuke was quite upset about it too. And the 2 of us were quite at a lost cos it's difficult to watch someone on-fire for God just suddenly slip away.. But Kousuke, we must press on.. I'm sure that with prayer, God will work through us :) :) But the whole saga also made me realise just how patient and loving God is, and that his love is really amazingly never-ending.

Thankyou, Father, for loving us, even while we were sinners; for always being ready to take us back into your arms whenever we need you. And even though we are so unfaithful to You, Lord, You remain faithful and loving through everything. All the times I thought I could handle everything on my own, all the times I ignored Your word and acted on my own decisions, all the times I turned away from You, I'm sorry Lord. I must have broken Your heart, but in the end You were still there for me when I needed You. When I drifted away and slipped back into the mud You first found me in, You were always there to take me back and cleanse me with Your unconditional love. Thankyou so much Lord, for your love, which overcomes everything else.

Sigh. at the same time, I've also reflected abit and realised that I haven't been praying for the lost ones around me with enough zeal and ardour as I should be. Help me pray for them, Lord, as though You were returning tomorrow. Remind me each day Lord, that You are going to return one day. And help me to pray earnestly with a sincere heart, knowing that salvation should not stop at me, and that when You return, I want to see them safe in Your kingdom.

It's just comforting to know that God is in control and that His love is unconditional. Thankyou Lord! :)

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Wednesday, June 28, 2006

Ephesians 6:11-12
"Put on the full armour of God so that you can take your stand against the devil's schemes. For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms."

got a little discouraged by something today. (not physics... physics was ok.. much better than chem.) and got a little distracted from studying because of that. so maybe math will be another gone case like chem. :(

sigh. everyday we're going through a spiritual battle. and Satan just knows when I'm weakest. and he strikes in such a painful way... but I know that God's love will overcome everything. His love will break down these walls of mine, for He knows my needs the best. and He'll provide all I'll ever need. was discussing this with K. (mata ka?! haha Kou-chan yonderu?) and we realised how saddening it was to see so many of the devil's strongholds on them. That's what makes evengelizing there so difficult. It's a totally different field out there. But God works in miraculous ways. And somehow, He will work at His own timing.

haha anyway it's sad that the World Cup is coming to an end. :( haha i've never really enjoyed watching soccer before. but this year was fun and entertaining :) thanks for all the live telecasts kou-chan. and for reminding me to press on for His glory and not get tempted to watch the world cup matches. (: haha nankasa- yappari we're gonna miss yoshihiko and minako arguing over which team played better... darou?

ohhhkay. i'm starting to get out of point. but yep. I just can't imagine how I'd be now if I didn't have Jesus in my life. I just feel so blessed that I received Him into my life. :) Thankyou Jesus.

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Monday, June 26, 2006

whenever I'm on the brink of giving up, all i need to do is close my eyes and remember: God will see me through.

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Saturday, June 24, 2006

woah メチャこわいで。i think CTs are going to be horribleeee. ah well. ま、取り敢えず、頑張るか？that's all i can do for now i suppose. (: mmm and of course, trust in Him to lead me through it all.

anyway Japan didn't win. but it's ok. they tried very hard ... and they already made many of their fans proud. (:

ah wells. i feel quite bad for those players who might not play for the next world cup though. cos this might have been their last time playing.

all in all, it's been quite a good week i suppose. (other than the fact that ALOT of people have been warning me not to feel sad if i fail CTs -__-;; thanks alot you guys..) でもね... God is goood. (: i'm so glad i found Him. like what お姉さん said, i really can't believe I managed to live through those years without Jesus in my life. but but but i guess it's because I actually hit rock bottom (well maybe not. but yea those were some bad times) and hurt lotsa ppl and messed up in lotsa aspects of my life that when i finally found salvation, i treasured it so much more and was able to reflect on all the wrong things i've done and let God wash away my sins with His love. yup yup. God will lead me through everything (:

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Wednesday, June 21, 2006

信じられない。hols are ending in less than a week! (泣)
holidays ね... it was ちょー楽しかった。i got to meet up with kousuke (and yoshihiko)！そしてshopping sprees (!) = <333 and do tons of other fun stuff. as well as grow closer to God <3 I realize that it's probably because of PO that makes me treasure the relationship I have with Jesus so much. and reflecting on all that Jesus has done for me... (: He's really more than enough for me.

やっぱ I'm going to miss the holidays. (and miss being a ヒマジン!) だけどschool's fun in its own way i guess. and yes. God is in control だから everything will be 大丈夫。

ってか... ちょっとヤバイですね。I'm gonna have to be ちょーmugger for the rest of the hols if i want to pass those CTs. but i know that God is in control だから大丈夫。ってゆかI haven't thought concurrently in english and japanese like this for really long! haha kousuke must be your influence. XD じゃ、明日 i'm 絶対 staying up for the Japan Brazil match. ってか everyone except me and kou-chan is supporting Brazil. including my brother and yoshihiko. my sis has decided to be neutral. and yoshihiko was like "君たち、阿呆やなー。" and then we retaliated back in 関西弁: 何ゆとんねん？！

haha ok i think i shall end the entry here. this is turning crappier and crappier だから.. :P and if anyone actually bothered to read this, congrats you must really be a himajin! XD

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Tuesday, June 20, 2006

nites.

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Monday, June 19, 2006

I've only just realised how much I love them. and that in itself, is a gift from God. I'll keep praying for them... till a miracle happens.. for God has said in Jonah 4:11 -


I know Daddy God will watch over them. for He loves them; has always loved them, and always will. someday i want to go there for mission trips.

apart from that... I'm just glad to know that He is in control (: and just how many blessings God has showered down on me. Thankyou Lord for watching over my mum and helping her recover so soon. And thankyou Lord, for sending down an angel to watch over Uncle Arnold.

oh well. was quite disappointed with the newspaper's sports section. the only picture they had of kawaguchi senshu's save was a squashed, resized weird looking one. shall go search for nicer articles online.

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日本、ガンバレ！！まだまだあきらめるねは早い！！

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Saturday, June 17, 2006

anyway high school muscial is so sweet!


their singing is so lovely!!! and together, their voices are just so magical.

but your faith, it gives me strength.
we're breaking free
we're soaring, flying
there's not a star in heaven that we can't reach
if we're trying, yea we're breaking free.

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haven't been able to go to church or cell for the whole month. but thankfully i have my bible and i've been doing my qt. and reading josh harris' book. it's such an amazing book and i only wished i'd read it sooner. so many times we think we're in charge and that we can handle it all, when in truth, God was just waiting for us to humble ourselves and turn back to Him.

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Friday, June 09, 2006

was clearing up my e-mail inbox and i came across the e-mails from TK. and now i've gotten into total nostalgia mode and i miss TK ): ): ): i wish i was still sec 4. that was when i actually had time to spend the whole night chatting via lj or msn to mali and ane and TK. ): and fangirling! haha that was like one of the most fun periods of my life. (: non-stop johnnys fangirling. and we'd forever be like "jin choo kakkoii yo!!!" or "kame kanari yaseteru!! XD" all that slang. haha XD

haha i swear it must be school. school has turned me into a mindless member of society. (i'm reminded of handmaid's tale haha nvm).....

haha i'm just thankful there's God. He is forever my anchor in this insane whirlpool of life. Jesus is who I live for everyday (: Jesus is my all.

i miss her and her and her and her and her. but it's inevitable for ppl to drift apart i guess. it's part of life. i only wish i'd said goodbye while they were still near enough to hear it.

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Thursday, June 08, 2006

haven't come online for so long it almost feels weird doing so. hah. this just proves that i don't need the internet. and i can live perfectly well without it. (: but oh well seeing that the internet is afterall one of the only ways i can communicate with a special few people... sigh. here i am again.

to kousuke: be strong no matter what happens, alright? (: you have always been and will always be just like a real brother to me. (: onii-san ganbatte! Just have faith knowing that He will always be with you. and besides, how they view you is not a measure of who you really are. don't worry. watashi ha, kousuke-kun wo shijimasu! (:
"Beloved, do not think it strange concerning the fiery trial which is to try you, as though some strange thing happened to you; but rejoice to the extent that you partake of Christ's sufferings, that when His glory is revealed, you may also be glad with exceeding joy."

"May the God of all grace, who called us to His eternal glory by Christ Jesus, after you have suffered awhile, perfect, strengthen, and settle you."

that said, hayaku genki ni narimasu you ni! (: I'll be here for you if need be. ganbare! (:

hmm. anyway tmr is atempo. (: jiayou ppl in band heh. i'm kinda looking forward to it. yay and there'll be mr oura too (:

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