Thursday, March 09, 2006
Draw me close to You
Never let me go
I lay it all down again
To hear You say that I'm Your friend
You are my desire
No one else will do
'Cause nothing else could take Your place
To feel the warmth of Your embrace
Help me find the way
Bring me back to You
You're all I want
You're all I've ever needed
You're all I want
Help me know You are nearFather, i've strayed too far away and for too long from you. but indeed,
YOU are my desire. I'm really scared I've backslided, for i find myself being shaped by worldly desires/ events. which really shouldn't be the case. Yet you waited patiently and faithfully, as you always do. and today i heard YOUR voice again.
Lord I come to you, let my heart be changed, renewed. flowing from the grace that I've found in you. and Lord i've come to see, the weaknesses I see in me will be stripped away by the power of YOUR love.Anyway I was just thinking about how foolish I've been for the past few weeks. letting anger take control of me. and forgetting to honour my father and my mother, as God commanded. but I know I'm blessed to be where I am now and to have what I have now. I love my mommy with all my heart. And i must really try to be less monosyllabic when I speak to her. Cos the more she cares, the more she wants to know. And the less I let her know, the more worried she gets.
Sometimes it's amazing how God's words just dawn upon you and you just feel so stunned by how blind you were before that. but Daddy God is always patient, always kind, always loving and always faithful. and for that, I'm so so so so so blessed.
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anyway i feel drunk. haven't laughed this much in ages. I guess I kind of miss being in a totally female environment like rg. haha i miss being able to sit however i like and lying down to sleep in random spots of the bandrm with maomao. and most af all, i miss the chats!!! hehehehe i spent the afternoon/night with gek, eliza and xiling. and got tickled by the stupidest things ever.
but got a little annoyed during a random lesson. like how much of a friend can someone be, if she forgets what you're especially sensitive about? and like wth. since you know my weak spots, don't attack me where i'm weakest. i trusted you for a reason. but i shall just take it that she didnt mean it. or that she didn't expect me to be thaaaat sensitive over such a silly thing. so. oh well. i refuse to let sin corrupt me further so i wont be filled with anger and hatred. (:
oh also, im having a splitting headache. and my eyes are hurting. but i like the sound of a band playing. i miss mr oura (: he's got to be the cutest conductor ever. haha i loved the songs he conducted.
but yes. as much as i'd love to continue crapping away, bio and econs are waiting for meeee. both tests are tmr. or today, rather, since it's now past midnight. =/ but nope i wont be stressed out. BREATHE. Daddy God will provide. (:
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