向左向右向前看#爱要拐几个弯才来

Monday, February 06, 2006

this morning i saw a rainbow. it was really really beautiful.. and it brought back alot of fond memories of another place, another time, another me. And how i wished time could just stop in that noisy canteen while everyone was busy chatting and making merry (over the cancellation of morning assembly). cos at the point of time, i was lost in another world, living another life. but some day, i will return to that place. some day. i will return there and feel the breeze brush past my face soothingly again. I will smile and walk through the tall grass again. and I will find that part of me i left behind. It's still waiting for me. and perhaps it always will. but for now, it's back to reality... x__x

anyway i must challenge myself not to DO THAT for like at least 1 day. or like my gor says, hug myself for 1 month and in the meantime worry about what I'm gonna get him and my jie for their respective birthdays. lol. and after their birthdays, if i still think I wanna DO THAT, then yea I'll go ahead. but who knows, time will help to erase stuff. maybe after 1 month of hugging myself and worrying about more important things, it'll go away? and besides, this isn't what God wants. This is just what I want. I'm sure Jesus didn't die on the cross just to see me make stupid and selfish decisions. so yes. after one biiig circle, I'm back at the start: maintain the status quo!!! haha I realise this problem has been bothering me alot for like the past few days (week?) and it's taking up too much of my time and attention. so i must learn to let go when I should, even if it's a difficult and painful proccess. cos yea in life, it's inevitable to have to learn to let go so we can hang on to the more important things.

take care everyone.

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