Thursday, January 19, 2006
the true meaning of what we were discussing during cell yesterday just sunk in on me today. cos last night was a really bad night. and i was really really upset about silly things which i shall list out later. but yea I guess God really answered my prayers like immediately! which was so so cool.
1. i was really really freaked that szemin was pissed at me cos i did promise to go with her for the Japanese Club session.. but i ended up getting convinced not to. and then i SMSed her to apologise but she didn't reply it. and I tried calling her house but I didn't have her new home number. So i really just lost it and started crying. but just then, I prayed to God that she would forgive me and not be angry because I really didn't mean to not go with her. and just then, Szemin opened up a msn convo and talked to me and told me she wasn't angry with me. and i was so so shocked that my prayers were answered like on the spot.
2. I was also feeling quite upset over the fact that I never really got close to my OG... and I was kind of feeling apprehensive about my next 2 years in RJ. but then just yesterday and today, my new class bonded quite well! I really think I'm going to get to love my new class. And I really want to thank God for that because it's so hard to find a whole class where everyone accepts everyone and there isn't a bossy person around. and yea! really! i really like everyone in my class.
3. and haha yeaa i was still having my doubts over my CCA choices and kind of asking God like, "God, I asked you what path you have in store for me.. I really don't know what CCA would be good for me.. I really need a clear-cut answer so why haven't you given me one?" and just then, my sister told me something she learned in her cell group : God may have many plans for you, and if you're facing dilemas, it doesn't necessarily mean that only one choice is the one God has in store for you. It doesn't matter what you choose, as long as you do it in a Christlike way. As long as you do your best in it and worship God through it. and i was like wowwww. all the while i've been fretting and the answer was so simple.
4. and of course. erm. as can be seen in my previous posts.. I was er kind of screwing up relationships within the ex-sb. and i dunno. i guess what happened to the 2 of them is irreversible and oh well.
since when have they been part of my life? i dunno. maybe it's really my fault that i took everything for granted. but reading through all the notes they wrote during previous concerts and competitions and everything.. made me cry. (which is why i cried for 2 hours yesterday.) but then i realised that when God closes a door, he opens a window. cos i realised that I'm so thankful for jas and emm. and i don't know how to express it, but I really feel very thankful and happy every time i pass by jas or emm (especially jas since i don't really see the humans ppl), I can really cheerfully say hi to them and it's like this joy you get when you see someone you really i dunno, er.. feel for? and even though i don't know how to express it, I thank God for that. whether or not i'll ever fix up stuff btwn the 2 of them, i will never know. but i'm just thankful for j and e.
5. haha and yes i'm very thankful for nice friends who were worried about me... Hamsie for instance. i was really touched when you asked me if i was feeling ok this morning. :) *hug*
ok that's that. now i shall blog about today. today was a greaaat day lol. i'm so happy! we had lotsa lotsa class bonding sessions :D we had class brunch and also class lunch. and we played the number game (but it died half way).. and jonathan (new classmate) showed me some card tricks which i still haven't figured out how he did it cos i'm not very quick at these kind of things. haha and basically everyone just sat around and class bonding sessions were fun :D haha and our 1st ever chem prac was ok i guess. the relief tchr was quite friendly and interesting XD and she made the prac quite funny. but GP killed my brain. cos er i haven't written ANY EXPO ESSAYS since EOIs last year. which was like term 3. hahahaha and guess what? we had to write a expo essay. yes it was a diagnostic test. i ran out of things to crap about after 45 mins i think. and had half an hour more to stone and squeeze out more crap. oh dear. i really hope i don't fail it.
oh and on the mrt home, i met jonathan (ex-classmate) but didn't recognise him oops. i was getting quite freaked that this person walked past me at the mrt station, stared at me and walked off into the distance and stared at me again. then he came up to ask if i was mable. and i was like, "... yea... er you are...?" hahha ooooops i was so embarassed when i realised it was him. we had a nice chat on the mrt ride home. and it was so funny lahhh. i cant believe he still remembers all the P4 crushes and stuff. -_-;; oh dear.
haha anyway i'm in a MUCH better mood than i was last night. and i guess God really wanted me to learn to just share my troubles with him and Pray Until Something Happens (PUSH). :) yay~
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