Tuesday, January 31, 2006

CHEM:
1. send research to xueling
2. tutorial 1 (qn 9 and 10)
3. chem assignment
4. tutorial 1b

MATH:
1. tutorial 1
2. revise functions ><
3. math assignment

PHYSICS:
1. tutorial 1 (finish the last qn or at least try to figure it out)
2. tutorial 2

ECONS
1. come out with example to illustrate comparative advantage

Birthdays!
1. Buy Minky's birthday present
2. Buy Gek's birthday present
3. Buy M and A 's birthday presents...
4. Buy Hamsie's birthday present (: hehe
4. Possible class celebrations for feb birthday ppl(???)

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Sunday, January 29, 2006

yea rite. that has got to be the most flawed statement I've ever come across. But at the same time, words can really help alot too.

[edit at 11.30pm] heh I love you Gek <333 You're really a very very sweet friend and I'm really glad I got closer to you in sec 3... I've always enjoyed chatting to you and today's chat on the phone helped alot. (: I really felt much better after talking to you. but grrr we kept having alot of silly interruptions. nvm! the next time i meet you in school I'll talk to you without interruptions :D yay.[/edit]

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I really feel very upset over the whole thing. Not because I got scolded quite harshly and that although it was kind of my fault, I really felt quite hurt cos in my opinion it was really more of a misunderstanding which I didn't mean. But what really cut me deep was that what I did might have changed someone's opinion of Christianity and God in general. But the truth is, just because I'm Christian it doesn't mean that I'm perfect. No, not at all.. in fact I'm still very much a sinner. But at least after knowing God, I'm trying and striving to become more and more Christlike everyday. and i dont know. i really dont know what to say or do because it's really up to you whether you'll believe me that it was a misunderstanding, and whether you'll forgive me.

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Saturday, January 28, 2006

i think the devil strikes when you're the weakest. like when you feel like finally your life is back on track you realise how many people you've hurt and annoyed because of your carelessness. but i guess this is a big lesson and wake up call to me to stop discussing other people's private lifes. I don't know what to say. and i think i failed big time as a friend, a confidante and wth I don't even know what I can actually do right anymore. I'm never discussing personal issues with anyone ever again. cos all i do is screw things up.

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Thursday, January 26, 2006

CHEM:
1. send research to xueling
2. tutorial 1 (qn 9 and 10)
3. chem assignment
4. tutorial 1b

MATH:
1. tutorial 1
2. revise functions ><
3. math assignment

PHYSICS:
1. tutorial 1 (finish the last qn or at least try to figure it out)
2. tutorial 2

ECONS
1. come out with example to illustrate comparative advantage

Birthdays!
1. Buy Minky's birthday present
2. Buy Gek's birthday present
3. Buy M and A 's birthday presents...
4. Buy Hamsie's birthday present (: hehe
4. Possible class celebrations for feb birthday ppl(???)

haha oh no. im gonna have to try and mug during CNY. so visitors pls leave me alone. haha im kidding. anyway ppl are totally DAOing me on MSN. so sad. =( haish... but oh wells. tmr no lessons! and there's supposed to be a class outing but i have no idea how its gonna turn out cos i have no idea who can make it in the first place. lol. and some ppl are probably gonna pangseh us to go out with other ppl. oh noes. this ish bad. hope it turns out well.

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at |9:49 PM|

today was a good day! (: haha ok actually i started out feeling really stoned and sleepy. and it was alot colder than usual... so i was freezing! but oh wells. it's singapore we're talking about after all. so it soon became very hot.

haha played quite alot of bridge today. and YAYY i finally broke my losing streak (that Dali passed to me -_-) XD finally!!! i actually managed to win a couple of games! lol and chem prac was alot better than i thought it would be.. quite fun actually. but zomg i'm the ultimate winner! i accidently let HCl (hydrochloric acid) come into contact with a cut on my finger :( ouch ouch ouch. it's still red and swollen but at least it doesnt hurt anymore. ooh and GP was super funny. XD i think the GP teacher is so cute. she pronounces alot of our names in really funny ways. like chenggong being read as cheng kong. ROFL. i had a laughing fit and chenggong poked me with her pen. haha... ^__^;;

after school i almost took mrt with jonathan (goh) but he was in a rush to go home so i decided to take bus with jonathan (chua) instead. besides, the bus route is ALOT faster than the mrt one. i took like 50 mins to get home today.

haha i'm quite happy being in my class. everyone kinds of gets along with everyone :D and there isn't a guy-girl segregation either.. WingYee was telling me about her class and how the guys and girls just stick within themselves. but yea i'm quite amazed at how well my class is getting along (: i hope that everyone gets to stay in the class after collecting Os... don't want anyone to transfer out ): S06S wouldn't be S06S with one less person. sighh.

ooh and i'm so happy! i got to meet szemin today! haven't seen her for so long!! and it's ridiculous we take the same subject combi in the same school. but we rarely ever get to meet each other. ): sigh sigh sigh.

haha ok ok this is such a pointless post. and i'm off for dinner. bye bye.

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Wednesday, January 25, 2006

I seem to be crying alot these few days. haha cried on monday night cos my mommy was in a bad mood and scolded me for not packing my bookshelf. and then yesterday (tues) morning, my mum was still in a bad mood so she scolded me for every thing possible on the way to school. made me feel really quite worthless so i cried in the car. but oh well. i guess what God really wants me to know is that no matter how useless and worthless I feel, He still loves me; that I am worth so much to him. And seriously, just simply remembering that He died for my sins is enough to tell me how much God really loves me. and that really touches me. haha cell grp helped alot today.. cos it reinforced that message from God. (:

met jon-goh at the mrt station again. LOL i'm not the only one who didn't recognise him after all these years. YAY now i dont feel so bad. but seriously, it's a bad idea to go up to someone who doesn't recognise you anymore and say in this very serious, matter-of-fact way, "Is your name xxx?"

lol i'm so tireddd and i cant wait for the Chinese new year break! whoppee! but gah i am still behind in lots of tutorials. gotta mug mug mug! ): and chiong! oh and yayy thanks for burning me the stuff chuntsen. i will watch it once i stop drowning in tutorials lol. and thanks for msn chatting with me that day when i was sad!

[edit!] haha yea baybeh! don't go to them! let them come to you! ROFL [/edit at 9.50pm]

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Sunday, January 22, 2006

People talking without speaking
People hearing without listening
People writing songs that voices never share...
And no one dare
Disturb the sound of silence.

i miss you and you and you. isn't abscence supposed to make the heart grow fonder? why then, do i feel like i'm growing further and further away from you? perhaps i'll one day look back on this and savour what once was, and mourn what isn't. i wish time would stand still for just awhile. anyway i really do wonder if people are hearing what i say but not fully listening. and if so, what's the point of speaking then? it'll all just be noise and not sound.

and i don't know. i think sometimes the hardest thing to do is not forgiving others, but forgiving yourself. your guilt lives inside of you. and sometimes what hurts the most is not some dramatic heart-breaking turn of events, but just a simple action.

anw my dad's garlic theory doesn't work. (he has been instructing me to press garlic to my ulcer instead of applying medicinal stuff on it.) but yes my ulcer has not gone away for like 4 days. so after much whining and persuasion, he decided to just bring back the oral lotion for me. XD my daddy is so cute. he still remains indignant about the fact that garlic does kill germs/bacteria though. And actually so does my mommy. haha i'm so thankful to God for blessing me with such wonderful parents :) I've never had a single fight with either of them before.

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Saturday, January 21, 2006

seriously, i don't think i would get through anything without His love at all. It's Him i live for everyday. can't you see all these things I do, i wanna do it for His glory, not mine. but yea anw i just realised how thankful i am to char for introducing me to Christ. cos it was because of His ever faithful love that kept me hanging on for the past 2 years. I was living a dream. Everyday I didn't have any direction. but after i accepted God, and i made the decision to really commit my life to Him, I really feel him working wonders in my life. I can feel Him giving me direction and answering my prayers.

oh wells. I really wanted to let them know about my new blog. but reading what she said on her lj made me sad. cos i know God wants me to know I'm still not ready for this. that they're still not ready for this.

anw im so honoured. someone just confided a big guarded secret in me. :D wow. but nvm lah it's nothing big. and shush i m keeping quiet about it :D

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i've been feeling really sleepy since last night. no idea why though.. and i guess i'm really starting to feel VERY apprehensive over physics chemistry and math, which is proving to be quite a problem especially since er they make up 3 out of 4 of my H2 subjects lol.

but oh well. physics prac yesterday was quite annoying but fun! (: jianliang and lu rong make really great prac partners haha and i keep misleading everyone by happily declaring that the micrometer screw gauge reading is 0.334 milimetres. and then jianliang suddenly exclaims, "are you sure that's possible? 1 mm is already so tiny!!!" and then i realise it's supposed to be 3.34 mm. haha *hides* i'm terribly blur in stuff like that. but ouch my contact lenses kept irritating my eyes and in the end i kept having to borrow eyedrops from trixie and jianliang.. and in the end jianliang was nice enough to give me his whole bottle. ooh and after prac, chenggong and i ran to j8 to buy birthday cake for xueling and everyone else whose birthday we missed. haha i think class birthday celebrations are really fun. we should really do this for every one in the class's birthday!

oooh and jonathan taught me a new way to get home frm rj! cos mrt ride is too long. x__x i always end up falling asleep and lol once i overshot my stop cos i was still sleeping. but oh wells i'll try out the bus route and hopefully i get home alot faster frm now on? ^_^ yayy.

oh and also, God really helped me to conquer some personal issues yesterday. i've been fighting with them for almost half a year already and i don't know. i guess God helped me to overcome those barriers. and yes, when you stick to God and finally conquer, the victory is sweeeeet.

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Thursday, January 19, 2006

the true meaning of what we were discussing during cell yesterday just sunk in on me today. cos last night was a really bad night. and i was really really upset about silly things which i shall list out later. but yea I guess God really answered my prayers like immediately! which was so so cool.

1. i was really really freaked that szemin was pissed at me cos i did promise to go with her for the Japanese Club session.. but i ended up getting convinced not to. and then i SMSed her to apologise but she didn't reply it. and I tried calling her house but I didn't have her new home number. So i really just lost it and started crying. but just then, I prayed to God that she would forgive me and not be angry because I really didn't mean to not go with her. and just then, Szemin opened up a msn convo and talked to me and told me she wasn't angry with me. and i was so so shocked that my prayers were answered like on the spot.

2. I was also feeling quite upset over the fact that I never really got close to my OG... and I was kind of feeling apprehensive about my next 2 years in RJ. but then just yesterday and today, my new class bonded quite well! I really think I'm going to get to love my new class. And I really want to thank God for that because it's so hard to find a whole class where everyone accepts everyone and there isn't a bossy person around. and yea! really! i really like everyone in my class.

3. and haha yeaa i was still having my doubts over my CCA choices and kind of asking God like, "God, I asked you what path you have in store for me.. I really don't know what CCA would be good for me.. I really need a clear-cut answer so why haven't you given me one?" and just then, my sister told me something she learned in her cell group : God may have many plans for you, and if you're facing dilemas, it doesn't necessarily mean that only one choice is the one God has in store for you. It doesn't matter what you choose, as long as you do it in a Christlike way. As long as you do your best in it and worship God through it. and i was like wowwww. all the while i've been fretting and the answer was so simple.

4. and of course. erm. as can be seen in my previous posts.. I was er kind of screwing up relationships within the ex-sb. and i dunno. i guess what happened to the 2 of them is irreversible and oh well. since when have they been part of my life? i dunno. maybe it's really my fault that i took everything for granted. but reading through all the notes they wrote during previous concerts and competitions and everything.. made me cry. (which is why i cried for 2 hours yesterday.) but then i realised that when God closes a door, he opens a window. cos i realised that I'm so thankful for jas and emm. and i don't know how to express it, but I really feel very thankful and happy every time i pass by jas or emm (especially jas since i don't really see the humans ppl), I can really cheerfully say hi to them and it's like this joy you get when you see someone you really i dunno, er.. feel for? and even though i don't know how to express it, I thank God for that. whether or not i'll ever fix up stuff btwn the 2 of them, i will never know. but i'm just thankful for j and e.

5. haha and yes i'm very thankful for nice friends who were worried about me... Hamsie for instance. i was really touched when you asked me if i was feeling ok this morning. :) *hug*

ok that's that. now i shall blog about today. today was a greaaat day lol. i'm so happy! we had lotsa lotsa class bonding sessions :D we had class brunch and also class lunch. and we played the number game (but it died half way).. and jonathan (new classmate) showed me some card tricks which i still haven't figured out how he did it cos i'm not very quick at these kind of things. haha and basically everyone just sat around and class bonding sessions were fun :D haha and our 1st ever chem prac was ok i guess. the relief tchr was quite friendly and interesting XD and she made the prac quite funny. but GP killed my brain. cos er i haven't written ANY EXPO ESSAYS since EOIs last year. which was like term 3. hahahaha and guess what? we had to write a expo essay. yes it was a diagnostic test. i ran out of things to crap about after 45 mins i think. and had half an hour more to stone and squeeze out more crap. oh dear. i really hope i don't fail it.

oh and on the mrt home, i met jonathan (ex-classmate) but didn't recognise him oops. i was getting quite freaked that this person walked past me at the mrt station, stared at me and walked off into the distance and stared at me again. then he came up to ask if i was mable. and i was like, "... yea... er you are...?" hahha ooooops i was so embarassed when i realised it was him. we had a nice chat on the mrt ride home. and it was so funny lahhh. i cant believe he still remembers all the P4 crushes and stuff. -_-;; oh dear.

haha anyway i'm in a MUCH better mood than i was last night. and i guess God really wanted me to learn to just share my troubles with him and Pray Until Something Happens (PUSH). :) yay~

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Wednesday, January 18, 2006

broke down and cried just now. cos everything seems to be coming all at once. like how this month's expenses seems to have gone up, bills yet to be paid, education fees for all three siblings (me included)... and it's like even the simplest most trivial things now are bothering me. like the fact that my zen micro is spoilt and i don't dare to ask my daddy if i can by a new mp3 player cos i don't want to ask him for a luxury goods when he has other things to worry about. and like the fact that i feel so bad that i promised to go down with sm for the jap club thing and i didn't and i'm scared she's pissed with me. i'm scared that i've screwed up more relationships than i can handle at one go. i felt so bad when i had to ask my mum for $175 that day cos of the graphic calculator. it's like she's so stressed already and i'm adding to her burden. and i dunno. there's so many things i'm stressing myself out over. and everyday i think i'm losing more and more of myself. i get swept away in the trivial things of everyday life and i don't even know what i'm chasing after anymore. i don't even know what kind of person i am anymore. obviously i'm a horrible terrible person and i guess i've annoyed alot of people around me. and if she really never talks to me again, it'll be all my fault cos i took our friendship for granted and i stood her up and ARGHHHHH i don't know what to do. i'm at a total lost.

Father, i can only turn to you now to guide me out of the mess I created. and I pray that the people i've hurt can find it in them to forgive me. and even if they can't... i wouldn't blame them. i sort of deserved it.

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i think i made sm angry today. sorry. but even if you hate me or something i wont blame you. cos yea i was wrong to do what i did.

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Tuesday, January 17, 2006

lol i knew unity was just a fake concept. two's a company, three's a crowd... and five. haha. five = different factions maybe. but i least expected what's happening now to have actually happened. 2+3=5? or at least it used to be.

anw i decided to join rec bad with gek darls <3 plus it's only once a week. haha but the six pairs on one court didn't sound fun. ooh and now i'm left with band v.s guitar v.s japanese cultural soc.
hmmm. think jas will want me to join band. but i want to join guitar (even though i've never played the guitar >.>;;) and i dunno. i really like jpnese culture. oh but then again. i really hate it when ppl go, "oooh i really love japan. i love japanese culture." and then when i ask them what exactly about japanese culture they love, the only words they can offer are "anime", "j-pop", "j-rock" or cos-play or something. i mean ok, er that's not exactly japanese culture. haha actually if i was doing KI i would choose to do my individual research thingie on deconstructing the myths of the japanese pop-culture. haha but ok nvm. that's just me. i've always been stubborn like this for quite long already.

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Monday, January 16, 2006

[edit] WHY DID EVERYONE HAVE TO CHANGE?! JUST A FEW MONTHS AGO I THOUGHT ALL 5 OF US WOULD CONTINUE BEING THE 5 OF US BUT WTH. AND I DUNNO. I AM TIRED TOO. I HATE THE FACT THAT THE RELATIONSHIPS ARE SCREWED UP. WHATEVER HAPPENED TO THE 4 YEARS OF FRIENDSHIP MAN?! WHATEVER HAPPENED TO UNITY AMONGST THE SB?! WHAT AN IRONY. [/edit]

i'm tired of this. Just admit you're missing your friend dude! Admit that (as much as you don't want to admit it) you miss your friend and you need him in your life. THEN GO call him and explain that you're NOT daoing him. SHEESH. Explain that you didn't mean to say mean things. Explain that you didn't mean it when you said, "You don't know the real me so quit bothering me." my goshhhhh do you haaave to put up such a tough front even though you're hurting inside?! GARGH.

ok nvm i shan't bother myself with other people's friendship problems. it's just annoying to know that your friend is feeling blue and not accepting your advice cos he wont admit that he's feeling blue over er.. the partial loss of his friend? sigh. guys. i will never understand what they're thinking sometimes. -_-

ah anyway. school today was so tiring. x___x but yay i think my class is quite nice! ooh and the econs tutor is nice! haha yayy i dont feel so annoyed at being the econs-rep now :D cos the tchr is so nice. whee. im tired. but high. contradictory? haha :D i confuse myself too. bye!

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Sunday, January 15, 2006

just a random thought : isn't it sad to be a clown? even if you're feeling so sad and depressed, you still have to paint a smile on your face and do stupid things to make people laugh.

anyway it's weird to hear about friendship problems between guys, cos i've almost always associated friendship problems with females. but still. aint it sad when someone feels so possesive over his friend and let jealousy ruin it all? i didn't know what to say. truly, i didn't. i mean, i felt that it was kinda X's fault cos it's not Y's fault to have other friends of his own. it's not as though Y didn't want to be his friend anymore. And i don't know. Maybe X just couldn't control his feelings so he said something harsh. so now their friendship is on the rocks? Yes i think it's partly X's fault. but!! I also empathise with him sorta. cos I know how he must have felt. Everyone knows deep down that true love doesn't mean posession or jealousy. but as humans with feelings and thoughts, it's damn hard not to feel jealous at times. but yea even though X is pretending that he doesn't mind, I can tell that this whole issue is hurting him alot. sigh guys and their ego fronts. why do they always pretend they dont care and that nothing bothers them? -_- oh well not that i had much advice for him either. is it like a guy thing to act dao and act as though nothing bothers them? -_-;;

sigh. oh well. human relationships are like an emotional battlefield sometimes. but God has given me the same message in like 5 consecutive QTs (which is a little freaky haha). It's when Jesus told his disciples that he would soon be leaving them, and that he had a new command for them: to love as he had loved them. So yes, even though I'm confused and I don't know how to handle relationships at times, I will try to love everyone around me.

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Saturday, January 14, 2006

happy birthday huijuen~! (though you probably wont get to read this. cos you don't know the existence of this place haha -_-)

sigh i went for cell in the morning, then went for a hair cut (cos my mum didn't like my hair being in btwn long and short). then i came home with the intention of mugging. but i uh fell asleep on my bed and only woke up at 9pm. sigh sigh. guess i was just feeling really sleepy :P but yes! i sorta completed more than half of my chem tutorials <3 yay! praise God haha :D I guess what God wants me to know is that He is ultimately the creator of this universe and no equation or formula man can come up with will ever stump Him. so as long as I believe in him, He can help me through it all. Yes, i may suck at chem and math, but i know that He will help me. I may take 5 hours to understand a topic ppl understand in 1 hour, but God will help me. God will see me through it all. And yay my Daddy is the King of Kings <3

Think I'm feeling alot better after cell (worship and stuff).. i know i made lotsa ppl like hamsie and TK worried over how depressed i sounded and stuff. but yea i just get stressed out by my own thoughts sometimes but I'm fine now. God pulled me back. heh.

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Thursday, January 12, 2006

God keeps reminding me everyday that I must love my fellow brothers and sisters. I got the message during 3 consecutive QTs already, which must be really serious. I must really find it in my heart not to keep thinking about rumours about certain people. Anyway the fact that the stuff i've heard are but rumours, proves that they could be totally unfounded anyway. sighh i am so annoyed with myself.

and gosh i feel so stupid cos i've spent like the whole day on math tutorial and i still have lotsa questions i dont know how to do. seriously, i haven't touched math (or CHEM/Physics for that matter) since a long long time ago! and the school is like zooming through stuff already. I really need God's strength now cos I can feel myself drifting further and further away. and to pull through these 2 years, i think I'll really need to depend ALOT on God's strength.

anyway i feel super amused by mr number one. ok yes he's really cute and all but it's super amusing the way he keeps walking around the school and then almost the whole batch thinks he's cute too. so it'll be like this unanimous whisper, "omg number one! there!" HAHAHA i went back and told my sister about it and she was super amused. but yea ok even though we call him the number one, i still dont think i've found anyone else cute enough for me to call a number one. ok nvm i dunno what im talking about. guess i just want to focus my life now on God and not let er.. any number ones distract me. still, it's damn fun ogling at number one. haha i'm contradicting myself right?

yes back to math and chem. I'm so stressed!!! i need help like real soon. cos i feel damn stupid for not even being able to complete tutorial #0. and chem too! i need to go like re-mug the entire mols stuff soon. which means.. goodbye to my weekend. ): i was planning to relax. ok and yes i better go read through physics lecture notes. cos that physics lecturer sounded so scary. the way he scared us all by talking about the low passing rate and i have no idea what else. i dont like it when teachers give you unnecessary stress like that. but oh well. i guess he just wanted to motivate us to work hard at physics. nites everyone.

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Wednesday, January 11, 2006

"I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me." - Phillipians 4 : 13

I don't know why I'm feeling so down again. I feel as though I'll never be smart enough, responsible enough, brilliant enough... Everything just seems so ominous and scary to me. I'm really so so so scared that I won't be able to keep up with all my school work and ontop of that I really hope I made the right choice for CCA today. But yes I'll believe in you Lord, because I have faith in you. I have faith that through you, I will be able to make it through. I believe that you will lead me through it all. And ultimately, I believe that I'll be able to make it because of you Jesus, because you strengthen me <3

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Tuesday, January 10, 2006

yes i hate being anti-social. it's not like i want to be anti-social or anything. i just cant help it. i think my OG hates me or something cos i almost nv turn up for OG outings and stuff. ok that morning we were supposed to meet but i really couldn't help it cos i met ppl from the batch. and i met Gek! and i hadnt met gek for like really long already. i dunno i just felt reluctant to leave the company of people i'm close to. and ok today there was supposed to be OG outing. but yea ok i didnt go. cos i'm not feeling too well and hanging out at the esplanade didnt really sound appealing to me.

sigh i just hope things will turn out better with my class whom i'll only be getting to know on fri when we have our next civics class thing. i really hope i get the courage to open up to people from my class and not be so sadly anti-social. sigh. i guess i'll just have to pray to God to help me not feel so closed and apprehensive towards almost all the new strangers i meet. and really. it's gonna be 2 years with my new class so i hope i get along with everyone and i dont get labelled as some anti-social freak. haha.

it feels weird not having any work to do. public holidays are only appreciated when you have had lots of work and you suddenly have a break from school. but for me it's been like sian and slack so far so it didn't really feel special to me. but yes i think when the work starts getting heavy i'll be complaining alot. i'm weird.

ah kaes i shall end off here.

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at |11:16 PM|

"Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but always rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always persevers. Love never fails..." - 1 Corinthians 13 : 4-8

I was just thinking about how we all live in a pretentious world. and how everyone claims to love everyone else but i guess it's really really hard to actually demonstrate true love. and i guess i was wrong to do what i did. for Jesus said in John 13: 34 "A new command I give you: Love one another. As I have loved you, so you must love one another." I know that was God's message to me when I did QT today. Love is not an option for Christians for we aren't just fellow Christians, but one big family. I really don't know what got into me. and I'm sorry God for doing what I did. I dunno. I guess it's just hard for me not to be prejudiced against people who give me bad first impressions. and i can't help disliking people who act dao and stuff. but well, I'm not perfect either i guess. I'm just as much a sinner as everyone else. so i really shouldn't be the one to judge if a person is too rude; too dao; too stuck up and whatever else. To love God is to obey him, and to ovey Him is to love Him. So I'll try my very best to not be biased and prejudiced again.

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Monday, January 09, 2006

today i had lectures for the first time ever! haha oh no i didn't enjoy them at all. really sian. but it was fun getting together with 415'05 (the funkiest class ever <3)>go on a diet. start exercising more. i really want to improve my 2.4km run score this year. and yea it's good to be fit and healthy ahaha.

and yes i hope lectures will hopefully get more interesting once they actually start teaching. cos today was really a bore. >__< i hated it alot. and yucks they gave us a pop quiz for the chem lecture which was just stupid. i havent touched chem stuff since last yr. so hahaha all i can say is that i TRIED doing the test. and hopefully by some stroke of luck, i might pass? XD sighh.

[edit] i just realised that there are like a million things i really miss alot now. i miss the days when we were still close friends; i miss the days when i was still your best friend... i miss Gek, i miss sze min, i miss huijuen, i miss 415'05, i miss Japan........ ok nvm the list would go on and on and on but i hate it when i get into overly nostalgic moods. i just feel that it's so hard to move on when i'm like still stuck in the past. but anyway i'm so confused. why do people change so much over time? it's like i dont even know you anymore. i guess human relationships just keep getting more and more confusing the older you get. [/edit]

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Sunday, January 08, 2006

I went for RJ Cell for the first time ever yesterday. I thought it was really really good. I could really feel God's prescence there and i really felt as though i was falling in love with God all over again. I really want to be more committed to going for cell this year and grow alot more in Him. but yea i really thank God for letting me have such a great cell group. and whee i even met a new brother who's really very nice :) and of course there was denise and kim from RG cell 2 yrs ago, and Char and Shauna. I really felt happy to be there with fellow siblings in Christ just to worship Him and be in his prescence. can't wait for the next cell :D

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haha this is quite funny. i'm like coming full circle and ending up back with blogspot. but ok i was getting a little tired of some people in livejournal. not going to go into the details. but yea so i decided to come back here. that's it for now. X)

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